Planning my attack just before you come back around
Maybe I’m wrong but I don’t know how to back down
I never fit in, you know I don’t belong
But you know that I don’t care when you and me are strong
Cause I’m a vampire y’all
We toast the blood of our enemies
You’re still scaring me, no, still scaring me, no
And we don’t fit in
Wonder what it’s like when you’re living with someone like me
I’m a freak and I’m nervous when it’s easy
Feral days, and I’m sex crazed
I put it in with my animal ways
That’s the sign I was born to be living in
I ran around and gave the finger to the Ritalin
You know you calm me down and I can’t say why
You say goodbye and burn my eyes
A thousand July’s
I hope you find
I’d give you the words, but no words come to mind
But you turn me so cold, so I tell you lies
When you let me in, it’s like a thousand Julys
When you left, I felt the drop like a boom
Wintertime all alone in your bedroom
I don’t blame you and I know I’m not your friend
How we live, young American
I guess I’ve always known, I’d be on my own,
I’d be on my own, and I don’t know why, I don’t know why
A thousand Julys
I know you’ll find
I’d say the words, but no words come to mind
But you let me in, and I don’t know why
But when you come, it’s like a thousand Julys
A thousand Julys
That’s what you are
I’d tell you to come back now, but we’ve gone too far
And we’ve burned it out now
I don’t even try
But I feel you gone
I lost a thousand Julys

I’m on a train, but there’s no one at the helm
And there’s a demon in my brain
Who starts to overwhelm whelm whelm whelm whelm
And there it goes, my last chance for peace
You lay me down, but I get no release
And I say I, I try to keep awake
I try to swim beneath
I try to keep awake
But I, I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare
And there’s a demon in my head who starts to play
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday
And I hold my breath till it’s more than I can take
And I close my eyes and dream that I’m awake
I try to keep awake
I try to keep awake
I try to keep awake
But I, I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare
I read dead Russian authors volumes at a time
I write everything down except what’s on my mind
Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound
And then I know that I’ll never get back out
And there’s a bone in my hand that connects to a drink
In a crowded room where the glasses clink
And I’ll buy you a beer and we’ll drink it deep
Because that keeps me from falling asleep I said
How’d you like to be alone and drowning
How’d you like to be alone and drowning
How’d you like to be alone and drowning
How’d you like to be alone and drowning
Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide
Into another nightmare
Keep awake, keep awake, keep awake
And I can feel this narcolepsy slide