It’s only self rejection
With a mean left
Cold carbon copied coping
And it’s mean theft
That’s been left behind
Paint pastel princess
Bo and arapax
The shelves when they’re broken
I’ll beg you, beg you

Waste life when youth is sweeter, neater
Content with contents
Cultures cringing at accents
And it’s too tense, camp out (nonsense)

She tastes the candy
Sugarless, cancerous
Crave cocaine cop shows
I’ll beg you, beg you

But it’s all the same to me
But it’s all the same to me
But it’s all the same to me
But it’s all the same to me

take up all my life inside
why would i let them make up my mind
and be mislead
give up what they taught us now
rest the past forever gone in time
lets find the way
this pain inside i can’t understand
this hate inside that will not go away
go ahead make up your mind
i have had enough of who they want
leave me alone
realize that i lost control
impulses keep flashing through my head
its on the outside
i have reazlied that inside to let go of all of the bullshit everyone around keeps giving me advice and i just know that everyone is full of shit, i take it day by day and i can’t understand, can’t understand
this pain inside i can’t understand
this hate inside that will not go away
this pain inside i can’t understand
this hate inside that will not go away
its always killing me
the problems i face daily
its always facing ??
always saving face
make up all my life inside
why would i let them make up my mind
and be mislead
go ahead make up your mind
i have had enough of who they want
i’m on the outside
this pain inside i can’t understand
this hate inside that will not go away
this pain inside that i can’t understand
this hate inside that will not go away
its always killing me
problems i face daily

[Chorus: Ja Rule]
Love don’t love me
Is the only thing that seems to hold me
God can you explain why
Love don’t love me
Is the only thing that seems to hold me
God can you explain why

[Ja Rule]
I sit alone in my four cornered room staring at candles
Gettin hot tryin to handle, this hand that’s been dealt to me
I don’t need, especially in this world overwhelmed with greed
See we cut from a different tree
Y’all niggaz hope and I wish a nigga would fuck with INC
Went through the troubles and the struggle of hustlin and runnin (what)
So the ones that come behind don’t’ run through nothin
They would fear no man but God and do a lot of frontin
And I’m here to tell the world that pain is lovin’
Like when I die I hope it rains
Cuz if it does, that mean the lord shared them niggaz pain
Here lie our man slain
And I would get out the game if I could
But I promised all my life to my kids I’d make good
Can’t stand my father and love my momma
STILL I TRY, God can you explain why

[Chorus]

[Ja Rule]
I live my life under pistol, cuz lately love ain’t been a issue
With who’s gone miss you, when you dead and gone
Will my name live on? Or will I be the last to die and breathe and eat
Cuz I need a little love and affection and baby
I live like every day was my last one
Dang, I’ve been living my life… (haha, yea)
Like I’m a leave this world unmarked, smiles combed to horror
For all them days when it rains
And it feels like thangs ain’t gettin no better for me
Nobody loves me, sometimes I wish God could come down and hug me
And wipe the tears from eyes
Cuz in my heart I know only the strong survive
And I die for my family, so they can live a better life
I try, God can you explain why

[Chorus]

[Ja Rule]
I’ll sacrifice my life, fuck all the dumb shit
Cuz being black and broke’s gettin redundant
My grow to be a world leader like X and King
If I can live a longer than Pac and BIG
What do (?) niggaz run red, you could tell by the lives we live
If it changes it’ll be God’s prediction, so pain inflicted, like Jane’s Addiction
Live right like Christians, but dance with the death
It’s like callin’ stones a devil, the road is unlevel
Still I walk through the valleys of shadows of death gasping for air
Breathe in my last breath
My daughter told me first words, my son walked his first steps
And all through life we anticipate death
And if pain is truly love, for my family I DIE, God can you explain why

[Chorus]

Ooh, ooh, pain is so close to pleasure, oh yeah,
Sunshine and rainy weather go hand in hand together all your life,
Ooh, Ooh, pain is so close to pleasure everbody knows,
One day we love each other then we’re fighting one another all the time,
When I was young and just getting started,
And people talked to me they sounded broken hearted,
Then I grew up and got my imagination
And all I wanted was to start a new releation,
So in love but love had a bad reaction,
I was looking for good old satisfaction,
But pain is all I got when all I needed was some love and affection,
Ooh, ooh, pain is so close to pleasure, yeah, yeah,
Sunshine and rainy weather go hand in hand together all your life,
Pain and pleasure, Ooh, Ooh, pain and pleasure,
When your plans go wrong and you turn out the light,
But inside your mind you have to put up a fight,
Where are the answers that we’re all searching for,
There’s nothing in this world to be sure of anymore,
But if you’re feeling happy someone else is always sad,
Let the sweetness on love wipe the tears from your facem
Ooh, ooh, pain is so close to pleasure, I told you so,
Sunshine and rainy weather go hand in hand together all your life,
Pain is so close to pleasure, yeah, yeah,
Sunshine and rainy weather go hand in hand together all your life,
All your life,
Pain – pleasure.

I have never taken life
Yet I have often paid the price
And you you are a victim of this age
And the guilt that hangs around your neck
Has got me locked up in a cage
You’ve got to learn to live until no end
But first you must learn to swim
All over again (oh no)
Because…
Pain lies on the riverside
And pain will never say goodbye (oh no)
Pain lies on the riverside
So put your feet in the water
Put your head in the water
Put your soul in the water
And join me for a swim tonight
I have forever, always tried
To stay clean and constantly baptized
I am aware now that the river’s banks are dry
And to wait for a flood
Is to wait for life
I’ve got to learn to live until no end
But first I must learn to swim
All over again (yeah yeah yeah)
Because…
Pain lies on the riverside
And pain will never say goodbye (oh no)
Pain lies on the riverside
So put your feet in the water
Put your head in the water
Come on, put your soul in the water
Join me for a swim tonight
For a swim tonight (oh my love)
I’ve got to learn to live until no end
But I’ve got to learn to swim
All over, all over
All over again (yeah yeah yeah)
Because…
Pain lies on the riverside (ohoho nanah nanah)
Pain will never say goodbye (oh no)
Pain lies on the riverside
So put your feet in the water
Put your head in the water now
Come on, put your soul in the water
Join me for a swim tonight (yeah)
For a swim tonight
Got to swim
All over, all over, all over
All over again
Got to live
All over, all over, all over
All over again

I’ve lived a dozen lifetimes in twenty-some-odd years
Got no use for trouble, got no use for tears
Can’t you see it’s killing me, I’m old before my time
I won’t let you double the pain of a troubled life

Chorus:
I’ve had my share of sorrow, more than you could know
Save your lies and alibis, I’ve heard that tune before
Can’t you see it’s killing me, I’m old before my time
I won’t let you double the pain of a troubled life

You’re out all night, asleep all day, so pack it up and leave
I’ve got no use for trouble, trouble’s using me
Don’t you see my love won’t be forever deaf and blind
I won’t let you double the pain of a troubled life

Chorus

Chorus

Can’t you see that love can’t be forever deaf and blind?

Standing in the rain all torn apart
from a love that was lost in the dark
without a light, it got me into your soul
nowhere to go when my heart turned to stone

The nights went by without your gentle touch
the pain and sorrow were just too much
it feels like a priest is commiting a sin
now theres nothing left just like us when in

CHORUS:

what did i do, telll me why
this isnt all the love, you and i
you kept the other side hidden from me
so what do i do with this pain you can’t see

Everywhere i go your voice isn’t near
i turn around hoping that youll be there
with open arms and tears in your eyes
seeing you return back into my life

to dry up all the blood shed by me
i cant even bear i cant even see
im trying to heal the wounds, but i cant
face the fact that youre not coming back

[REPEAT CHROUS TWICE]

I just stand in the room with those tears in my eyes
i think of you while the hurt makes me cry
you’re the one that i love the one i adore
you push and shove only to annoy

only what you want so theres outta site
youre an angel with eyes my guiding light
begging and pleading that i wait and explain
teasing me please no additional strain

This rain from heaven strikes you in vein
memories haunt your soul you call my name
so loud i hear it in a deep sleep
i wake up in sadness i feel i cant breathe

then i get on my knees with a cross in my hand
asking above where does love stand
should you live your life in fear
or should i go on and drop my final tear

[repeat chrous]

what did i do tell me why….
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why

I light another cigarette
Stop to think about it
Come to no conclusions
Take each step as it comes
Hold no prisioners except myself
Painful thoughts denied

Try to explain
My loss of words
Fuck you I piss upon you all

My head is a barricade
Filled with peaceful thoughts
With evil outcomes
No one understands
Try to break the barrier
I see no outlet
No ones there to catch me when I fall

Try to explain
My loss of words
Fuck you I piss upon you all

Fly, you greatest fool
Why can’t you say what they want you to?
Why can’t you do what they taught you?
And show what they wanted of you?

Fly, you greatest fool
Is this what everyone talked about?
You’ll spill your high flung phrases
And hush when the risk gets too much

And I, I wish you would do one…
Then I’d never have to notice if the bridges are burnt

Is this what everyone talked about?
Swallow anything that suits
Dress it up as truth
Swallow it all down

And I, I wish you would do one…
Then I’d never have to notice if the bridges are burnt
And I, I wish you would do one…
Then I’d never have to notice if the bridges are burnt

…so cold out here

Isn’t there the same effect
Down to claimb the stain
Throw me just another week
Cling onto reality
I find the others standing
Additives are banging
Love to stop demanding
I did it for yourself
My unexpected power
Gets stronger by the hour
I don’t have to suffer
You did it to yourself
Sucking up to click away
You wishing life would waste away
You won’t make the same mistake